Random update

Phew! Time fly by so quickly, especially if you are a lethargic sloth like me. It has been more than one Earth calendar year since I started this blog and never returned back to it. Hopefully, this time around it doesn’t get stagnated (that long).

The way events of my life have unraveled in the past week, my existential dilemma has peaked once again. Though I cannot disclose the details of these events, all I can say is that I was compelled to go through the motions in these events and all the while I was wondering what the fuck I am doing with my life. These existential crises, instead of motivating me for a change, further propel the lazy ass in me and I end up doing nothing for days.

By the way, these crisis inducing events of last week also made me wonder about few other things. I always used to think that my self-indulgence and absurdist philosophy was the reason behind my indifference to other people. I could never feel the happiness or pain of others and hence can never connect to anyone and end up being a social dork. I envy others for they can emotionally connect with people. Or is it? One particular incident made me to contemplate whether people really care about others life or is it the selfish anticipation of getting something useful out of the relation that drives them? Nothing against anyone, I guess that is some inherent human instinct on which one doesn’t have any control. It’s the way nature made the human society.

Coming back to my crisis, luckily this time around I do have a purpose in life to get me out of this existential abyss. The Sunfeast World 10K run is back this year, giving me an opportunity to come over the bad experience I had last year. Though I did cross the finish line of my first 10K run last year, the timing was a dismal 62 minutes. This time around, I am targeting a timing of less than 50 mins. Though I started my training schedule few weeks back, I am still lagging behind my target. Nevertheless, it’s better than the almost zero training of last year. I am quite optimistic of meeting my target this time around. Let’s wait till the D-day (23rd May, 2010) and see if I achieve some uplifting result or another existential gust is looming around to hit me.